What will I do without her?

[anniegirl]

It is hard to believe that Annie is gone. She passed away in her sleep just yesterday and I already miss her more than I ever could have imagined. Lymphoma is a terrible disease, and I'm so sad that it took my favorite puppy girl from me.
Now that I have allowed myself to cry, I just don't know if I will be able to stop.

Annie was the silliest, goofiest golden you would ever meet. I think about her love for socks, her rubber ducky, and favorite breakfast of egg beaters and turkey bacon that she would share with my mother every morning. I laugh about how she hated to have her picture taken (she would run at the sight of any camera!) and wouldn't go past her ankles when she went into the the ocean. And I wonder how I will ever, ever, ever stop crying and missing her.

[goldenretrieverdad]

I'm very sorry to hear about your dog.

[hunter's mom]

I am sooooo very sorry for about your beautiful golden. She sounds like she was very special to you. You certainly have some wonderful memories to hold on to and you will never forget the mark she has made on your heart.I think that when my Golden's time is up I hope that he will go peacefully in his sleep at home with us. Again so sorry. :dogbark

[OwnedbymyGolden]

I am so sorry for your loss.From the little bit you wrote, she sounded like a wonderful girl.It is very hard and you wonder how you will ever get through it, but you do.Memories of her will come flooding through and in time you will remember her with a smile.

[Brandy and Charlie's Mom]

People on this site probably understand your loss and pain more than anyone else. My heart aches for your loss! Your girl is waiting patiently for you across the bridge.

[CaynCher]

So sorry for your loss. It is so hard to lose a beloved dog no matter how many times we may experience it, but time will be a great healer. You will always have the happy memories that you shared with Annie and surely, she has gone to a better place where she is now a healthy happy dog once more.

[rthomas]

I know what you are going through as it has been less than two weeks since Kenda passed. Please know that you are not alone in this and my heart goes out to you. Annie is in a place where she is no longer in pain or suffering. She's waiting for you when you come for her. She knows you love her and did everything you could. Allow yourself to cry as often as you need to and don't worry about who sees it. I hope you heal quickly as Annie wouldn't want you to be sad for long.

[anniegirl]

Thank you all for your kind words. I found this site last night and I am beginning to think Annie must have led me here knowing that it would help me. It may sound funny, but seeing her name and knowing that others like you are thinking of her has already helped me.

OwnedbyMyGolden: I can't wait to post a picture of Annie so you can see how much she resembles your dog! What is his/her name?

Also, I have Kenda in my thoughts. I hope she and Annie have become fast friends : )

Thank you everyone!

[anniegirl]

I am sooooo very sorry for about your beautiful golden. She sounds like she was very special to you. You certainly have some wonderful memories to hold on to and you will never forget the mark she has made on your heart.I think that when my Golden's time is up I hope that he will go peacefully in his sleep at home with us. Again so sorry. :dogbark

As much as this hurts for my family and me now, we do feel some relief knowing that Annie went in her sleep. I have no doubt that she was dreaming of pigs' ears and belly rubs. Thank you for your kindness. I really appreciate it.

[SoulCatcher]

I'm sure Annie is running around you as we speak. They don't know they are gone. She is probably wondering why you are so sad. I don't think you heart will ever mend from a loss of an animal. I still mourn my T'Chen and it's been seven years. I might even cry if I talk to much about her. It's ok to feel sad about Annie. They touch our hearts like no human can. Bless you and your little Annie. ^i^

[maine-girl]

I am sorry for you loss. It's hard to explain to a person who never had a pet how they become part of your family and hold onto your heart. I had a minister in a sermon once mention that someone asked him if dogs went to heaven.
His answer was "Would it be heaven if your beloved pets were not there." so I believe in heaven and I know that they will all be there to greet me. God bless. :dogbark

[mybaby]

You are right about thinking that your beloved pet led you to this site... when my beloved 10 YO Golden baby had to be put down on Jan 17th, I thought it was the end of happiness as I knew it- they are SUCH a huge part of our lives. But I found , like you , that everyone here understands like no one else in the world can. I am so sorry for your loss-it's so devastating-it's almost undescribable . I feel your pain and hear your love coming through in your statements .

[OwnedbymyGolden]

AnnieGirl, my girl's name is Izabelle or Izzy for short.She just turned two last week.I would love to see a picture of your Annie.

[Andi]

I am so sorry for your loss. I feel your pain as I lost my 6 year old Porter last Saturday to now what they believe might have also been Lymphoma. He was only "sick" just over a week before we had to euthanize him. I also feel that empty spot in my soul and heart but I also know that he will be waiting for me. It will be so nice to hold him again.

God bless you and your family.

[mybaby]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss too. One week! How awful and shocking for you. I learned four days before Christmas, out of the blue, that my Sammy had only a short time to live-I nearly fainted. To the day I die, I'll remember going out to my car with the Samster and sitting there ,in shock, wailing like the lights in my life had been turned off. They were. Its been 9 weeks and the hole in my heart and home are still palpable .

[Luke's Mom]

Yes, indeed.....the people on this board understand your pain like perhaps no one else can, unless they are your friends and loved ones who also adore their own pets. I'm not much of a weeper, but the thing that helped me most when we lost our beloved Bud, a 10 year old, was to cry as often and as hard as I needed to. It was several times a day for several weeks, but the times gradually lessened until I could actually say I had gone days without crying. Now, some 3 years later, I can still get choked up thinking about him, but I also remember the good times with a smile and a very grateful heart. Some day you will even be ready to welcome another special dog into your heart, and you won't feel guilty for doing so. That's what love is all about! The more you give it away, whether to dogs or humans, the more you have of it. :)

[Merlinsmom]

I am so very sorry-there's no pain like it is there?

Time does lessen it-and you do end up remembering these things with a feeling of affection rather than intense loss-but I do appreciate how sad it is for you right now.I am very sorry....

Sending hugs to you..

[Chablis]

Sorry to hear about your baby. How old was she?

Get your favorite picture of you and her together(Or just her, if you don't have any of those) and keep it next to you on your nightstand. Then gradually put it in the drawer of your nightstand. If you keep it there forever, she'll always be right next to you while you sleep, and in your heart when your awake.

[mybuddy]

I feel very sad for your loss and having pets all my life can certainly relate to how you feel. I have my first golden, he is almost 3 now and never imagined I could love an animal so much. I know this must sound strange but I sometimes think about the day when I will have to say goodbye to him and cry at the thought! I cried when reading your post because it touches me so much that people love their animals so much. By the sounds of it, Annie had a wonderful owner and a life filled with so much love. Always remember that no matter where you are and no matter what you are doing, Annie will be right at your side. I just know this to be true. She is done in body but is always with you in spirit. I believe that she sent you to this website too.
I had a dream the night before last that Buddy had to be put to sleep...I woke up sick! I am totally serious and my entire day was effected by it. I could not function all day! We love our pets so much and each day we have with them is to be cherished.
Love to you and your Annie.

[elmac]

I am so sorry to hear that you lost your lovely golden. I lost my girl at the end of January, I still cry sometimes but it has got easier. I still really miss her though. Just try to remember the good times that you shared with her. I found it really helpful to have photos of her around, even though they made me cry. You will find a way to deal with it that is best for you. God bless.

[Kels]

I am so sorry! I have never actually had a dog die, but on the day we moved country, I remember my English Cocker spaniel, whine and cry, and his eyes were so sad as we drove away. I still cry when I think about it. I have had cats die before, and when my one cat died, I remember sitting, crying almost screaming, while my brother dug her a grave. Reading all these posts is enough to make me cry.

Again I am so sorry! :( :reddogx

[goldenlover]

Anniegirl,

I am so sorry for your loss. We lost our Bonnie back in September, and I thought my tears would never end.

Now that's a little time has passed, how are you doing?

God bless.